Tuesday, September 23, 2014

things i don't ever want to forget

I think every mama's heart has these moments daily, these moments when your heart swells and begins to ache in that familiar way. Those moments when you watch your baby, toddler, child... do something that is so painfully sweet and wonderful and you just pray your absolute hardest that you never forget.

I've been feeling a lot of that lately and so today I pray I may never forget:
  • the way she laid her head on the side of the bed and patiently waited while I put a ponytail in her hair, never taking those big hazel eyes off of me
  • the way she sits, legs crossed, on the floor and colors for hours narrating the whole thing in her darling fairy language
  • the way her face looks when she sleeps, so still, smooth and perfect
  • her sticky toddler hugs and slobbery kisses
  • the way she yells "papaaaaaaa" when daddy comes home and runs to wrap him up in a hug
  • the way she eats spaghetti - stretching it across her mouth and biting into the middle
  • watching her take Belle outside in the mornings, patiently waiting, leash in hand, while she does her business
  • the way she goes "aaaaaahhh!!!" and her tiny hands shoot up at the sky every time she hears or sees a plane
  • hearing her snore in her carseat
  • those tiny ringlets at the base of her head
  • the vigor and enthusiasm with which she smells candles, perfume and flowers
  • her giddiness over balloons
  • hearing her "read" books to herself
  • her fake laugh
  • the way she loves to help with unloading the dishwasher and putting her toys away
  • the way she screams happily every morning when she sees Belle for the first time
  • her attempts at picking Belle up
  • the way she says "oh no!" and furrows her brows instead of the classic "uh oh"
  • the way she dances until she's dizzy, which is mainly her just spinning until she falls down in a heap of giggles
  • the way her feet and hands look tiny and huge all at the same time
  • the way she smells after a bath
  • all her silly looks and ridiculous facial expressions 
  • that time I brought her into our bed in the morning and the way she gently petted my hand as she fell asleep
Those are just a few that come to mind now but ultimately there is so much more.

Monday, September 22, 2014

family photos - just us three (for now)

With me being a mere three weeks from my due date as of yesterday we planned on taking a few last photos of us as a family of three this past weekend. My cousin generously volunteered her services and we are ever so grateful, there is no one else we would have felt as comfortable or relaxed with. Plus I'm not sure anyone else could have been as patient as she was with Birdie. It's not easy taking photos with a toddler but I think we all made the best of it and ended up with some really special memories captured for us to enjoy forever! 
Now back to crossing off the last "baby prep" items off my never ending to do list!

Happy Monday!!

Friday, September 19, 2014

a week's worth of odds + ends

^ we bought Birdie some Russia alphabet blocks and she has been loving them! ^
^ I recently made my favorite "fall" dessert - pumpkin apple bread ^
I'm not sure how many more of these I'll do before the baby comes. My energy decreases with every passing day and home cooked meals are few and far between. The other day I went to the Starbucks drive through for breakfast, McDonald's for lunch and we got take out for dinner... Guilty doesn't even begin to cover it. I do take pride in the fact that I still cook Birdie meals three times a day so at least someone in this house is eating decently. 
I also am completely useless when it comes to keeping this house clean so we're planning on hiring a company to come and do a deep clean in the next couple of weeks. Have any of you had a really good experience with a specific company? I would love to pick one based on word of mouth. I just figure I can't do anything now and from the sounds of it I doubt I'll be doing much of anything after the c-section too. So might as well start with a clean slate when it comes to this house. 
As far as good news goes papa bear and I finally hired a babysitter and are going on a date night tonight!! You can't even imagine how excited I am about this. The thought of being able to look at each other during our meal and not have to yell over Mickey Mouse Club just makes my heart soar!! Though we are both a bit nervous as we have never actually left Birdie with a babysitter. Even when we had a nanny for a few months last year I was always at home with her. But mama and papa's happiness is important to Birdie's happiness and I know that this time that we will get to spend just the two of us will help us be a better husband and wife as well as better parents. So here's to date nights!!

Have a great weekend y'all!!

xo

Thursday, September 18, 2014

oh my deer!

dress - boden, bag - anthro, socks - target, shoes - hasbeens

We've officially reached the point in this pregnancy where it's pretty much go time. At our OB appointment this week baby boy was head down and at "station two." Also, I'm 2 cm dilated (insert wide eyed emoji here). This is when the midwife gives you the classic "he can come in a week or five weeks" talk. I love that talk... Don't you pregnant mamas??? It has a marvelous way of giving you false hope that you may be out of your misery sooner rather than later and at the same time making you feel like you're going to just keep ballooning into infinity. It just makes me want to have a tantrum and lord knows we have enough of those around here as it is. 
So instead I do what any somewhat sane woman in her third trimester does - I nest my bum off. I'm packing my hospital bag today and I even bought an embarrassingly large package of those Hanes granny panties so y'all know I mean business!! The moses basket is due to be delivered by the end of this week and I'm going to pick up a few more newborn diapers next time I'm out. The time that I'm not nesting I spend in my closet having serious/threatening conversations with my maternity clothes and warning them that "winter is coming" as in it will be just a few weeks before they are put away never to see the light of day again... Ok, so I'm being a bit dramatic but can you blame a girl for missing wearing something that actually has a defined waist?? Until then I can be found wearing this dress. Because it feels like pajamas and that's pretty rad.